Waiting for thor II

It´s so hard to wait - for something you want so desperatly. I try to bear it with interviews and clips. Voice recording and Pictures of the Con. But it´s still difficult.

Luckily for me there is tumblr - with girls all around the world united in their love for this man. It really helps to pass the time. It also satisfies your hunger for new pictures. New things you didn´t know. About Projects he is doing. But today I´m more about Benedict, because of `third star´ that movie should have been in the cinema - really now it was so brilliant and awesome, I don´t get why it hasn´t been in the german cinemas and why it took so long to translate it.

The last sentence really threw me off the cliff:

so I raise a morphine toast to you all, and if you should happen to remember it, the anniversary of my birth, remember that you were loved by me, and that you made my life a happy one, and there is no tragedy in that.

And off I was.
The Main plot is a bunch of friends making one last trip with their sick friend, he is really sick and suffering ... I don´t even want to say more to that, you have to watch it. You´ll laugh, get pissed, get angry, you´ll feel at lost and you´ll cry. You´ll cry a lot.

I wish there would be more movies as true and realistic as this one.

Comic Con 2013

I did almost miss the whole event, I came home Sunday morning and my dash on tumblr were exploding with Hiddles. Because he appeared on stage as Loki -

What is there left to say - it was pitch perfect - the whole crowd was at his feet - screaming his name as commanded. Leaving the feeling - actually this film should be called LOKI. And voices were raised for a own Loki Movie.

This all happend Saturday. On Sunday the ruled the Autograph Session.

Were he even sang and danced while changing the lyrics of get lucky - to get loki. After this he visited his Friend Zach were a live stream brought this panel into the homes of thousands of watchers.

One of the best Interviews with Fans he ever made. But the absolute highlight was his 7 steps of embarrassment - as been asked to do the Raptor Impression. Finally seeing that, the crowd was shouting and laughing with him. Because most of them knew the story about it.

And what can I say - why the fuck was I not there? The best Con ever and I wasn´t there. Loki bless the Net so at least I could enjoy it from here.

Once upon a time there were two boys named Tom and Ben ...

Let´s just say tumblr is a dangerous place to go when you´re frickle like me. Just to make it clear - I hated that guy - not to death no it was mere like `why is that unattractive guy on my dash, what is it about him the girls seem to love?´ I didn´t get it. Even after War Horse I was mere like duh alright - moving on.

But something happend to me and I can´t tell you why - on some day - bored and tired. I went and thought about the things on my dash and the fandoms. Supernatural wasn´t new to me - I had seen the first and second Season - Dr. Who - nah - not really, I´m not really into science fiction. And then there it was the Sherlock Fandom. And I thought well I liked the Movies with Robert Downey Jr. maybe it´s alike. And I really like Martin Freeman as Bilbo Baggins. So I thought well go for it.

Really surprised and irritated I was by the numbers of Episodes, but I checked and it really were just 3 Episodes in a Season, well if you can call that a Season at all.

And after the first 20 minutes I just thought

WELL FUCK ME - 

Because I´m fucked - in this few minutes the guy became Sherlock - and Sherlock became Ben and I became a Cumberbitch - or Babe. I like that one more. Suddenly nothing was like it was before. Really everything that annoyed me or irritated me - went to unique, beautiful and as perfect as can be. It´s nuts. And just a few interviews later - I was like, just how did I live before him?

Of Cause I still love my Hiddles, he is above everything, like unreachable. But Ben makes me giggle like a schoolgirl. I really adore him and he is so cute and goofy at some times - it´s so fluffy.

And did I mention his eyes - I didn´t ? Well just because I could write a freakin book about them looking like a galaxy mist. I will not even start - because there would be no end.

Lucky as I am I can watch 3 movies of him this year, and 2 of Hiddles <3 br="">

Well Tom and Jane

Tom and his probably girlfriend just took over tumblr. I too searched for her name, learned that she is working for Warnerbrothers Music. Nice. Tom loves Music. I also found a few pics on facebook - posted them. Just so share what she looked like without big sunglasses - and you know simply why ? Because of cause I´m curious - it human nature - if you like someone, and he gets a new girlfriend - be it a brother, friend or the guy delieverin your package - you want to know about her.
Some chick - told me it were the same as hacking into his, Tom´s, Account? Please - are you kidding, really now how old are you. NO ONE HACKED her account. So no one looking at her pictures is disrespecting her. In fact all I read was oh beautiful, classy brunette, nice, and so on ...

But the craziest are the girls hammering other girls for want to know about her. She has now shut her Facebook Site down. I think she needed to put her Pictures down or change the Public to private. Cause of the wave of visitors on her site.
But I´m not surprised at all. Some thought that his fans would be nice and easy about it, but it´s been years since his last girlfriend - means he belonged to us - and now you got bitch-slapped, reality biting it´s teeth into your freakin heart. And girls are indeed greedy and scary. But if the melt-down is over. Their brain starts working again. I think they just need to work it out. They´ll come around.

It´s so strange to have this heaviness of emotions for someone you never met, some may not understand, but it´s the same if you fall in love with a freaking comic character - WTF? But I was so in love with Koji Nanjo and that dude wasn´t even real to begin with.
And in your mind you can tell yourself, you´ll never met him, it will never gonna be - ever. But your little, scattered heart doesn´t care - like at all. And this ugly monster of jelausy, envy and resentment is graoring in your stomache. You know it´s wrong and stupid. But you feel that way. And it´s okay. And the Internet is a great way you let your monster out.

Let it go. Than change the page, look at his smile, hear him talking his little jokes, let your smile come back and face that he is in love, his beautiful and generous heart is filled with love. And you know how that feels...enjoy that feeling - you´re feeling nearly the same way as him. And you´ll see the monster is gone now. Be happy - because he is happy. And the main thing is, we want Hiddles to be happy.

I think that´s all I wanted to say. So let´s love our Hiddles - and his Jane. Cause if she is so lovely that he fell for her - I´ll fall for her too.

Tom and again Tom

I just found myself wondering, why do I like his Loki so freaking much, well I liked him before Tom, he was this mean but funny fellar of Thor, mischief followed him - where ever he went. But still Thor is drawn to him, listening to his words. He is his buddy, even though his anger is often caused by Loki.
For me Loki was the nature of mankind, the man we still love and want to love - caused by deep feelings and admiration of a man going his way, and if his way is plasterd by corpses.

And then Tom portraited him in this romantic and tragic way - he brought him closer to the humankind, with more humanity. Craving and sad - driven and certainly cruel. But because Joss Wheadon gave him a reason - a purpose. We the viewers were seduced by Loki.

He got our pity, our love - we want him to find redemtion. We want him to realize that he is loved - that there is a way and a place for him in Asgard. We want him so be saved. It´s so pitch damn perfect written - 
it´s almost like Hannibal Lecter. You see him, you fall for him - even though you know what he is doing. And when everything comes to surface - the cruelty and pain he has caused - you come to realize - that it doesn´t matter to you - because you love him already so much - you at this point just wish that he won´t be caught.

You know he is suposed to be the bad guy, but something in your mind such switches and you find yourself voting for him. The Serial Killer. The Gangster. The Nordic God. Gosh what a line up.
And then happens something you would´ve never even dreamed of in your wildest dreams. The God of bad assery - is the damn finest, nicest and funniest guy on the whole planet. In fact, I can´t think beside of Ian Somerhalder,of anyone who is as commited and lovely as him.

His manners are superb, the way he talks and communicates with Reporters, Fans or critics is so well performed - and so damn sweet and frank that you just don´t know what to do with yourself. The Contrast is so bright that - you want to scream Loki why can´t you just be - just a little bit like Tom. And if we are there - why can´t all the people in the whole world - be a little more like Tom. The World would be so much nicer this way. He already changed me, I work on my language, on my manners and I try to make the best out of my situation.

He really is a Rolemodel. My Rolemodel -